I'm a little lazy. So I'm copying and pasting this entry from my MySpace blog.

Another week. Went by so fast I could hardly keep track of the days.
It's Friday. The skies are completely clear...not a cloud in the sky.
Kind of ironic if you ask me. Seems like there should be at least one
rain cloud up there. At least one.
I like rainy days...though they always do tend to make me sleepy.

I was up so late last night, doing laundry.

My parents left yesterday. They'll be gone for a week. Until NEXT Friday.
Can't say I was remotely sad to say, "Goodbye, Have fun."

Audrey. One more day. Til I see you.

Turnstile
By: Me

You made your own decisions
Don't tell me I didn't warn you enough
'Cause I made it clear to you, best I knew how
And there's no turning back, there's no turning back now

I walked with blind perception
Knowing it was just a matter of time
'Cause you can't fly forever, you're bound to come down
And there's no turning back, there's no turning back now

Try, try, try as you may
But don't tell me I didn't try hard enough
'Cause I gave up everything, blind to the past
Now there's no turning back, there's no turning back

Yesterday's gone
Try to move on from the lies that had bound us together
And I'll remember you
I'll always remember you

Try, try, try as you may
But don't tell me I didn't try hard enough
'Cause I gave up everything, blind to the past
Now there's no turning back, there's no turning back now

no.

yes.

no.

yes.

no.

maybe.

I'm sure there's a nice quiet place somewhere in this world where I can go and get away from all of this...shiznukkle

FROU FROU
Sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud
Sometimes I'll have you know it's all insane
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...

I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth

Sometimes I like to get away from this saddening crowd
Sometimes I feel my life is all in vain (nn, Diy da, nn da)
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...

I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth

Some days my strength walks out
Some days I can't go on
It is for real
We can walk about
We can work it over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and...

I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth

If we were all living transparent lives. We could all see one another for who we truly are. No more false securities, no more fake smiles, no more meaningless "hellos", "goodbyes", and "I love yous"; 'cause we'd be able to see right through it. I'm not sure how good of a thing that would be, or how bad of a thing. I'd like to think it would make everything better. Nothing more to hide. But it could quite possibly cause nothing more than total and utter chaos.

I wonder if life "in the good ol' days" was really as simple and easy as our grandparents try and make us believe.
"Back when I was your age, I could walk across town without the fear of being shot"....blah blah blah
They were still dealing with the same things we deal with today. Discrimination against sex, race, age and religous beliefs.

And then there's the whole "tolorence" thing. We as Christians are supposed to stand up for what we believe...yet at the same time be tolorent and show God's love and grace to others. Long-suffering, and patient.
Then you have people standing on the side of the road with megaphones condemning people (whom they've never met) to HELL...
Crazy? I say yes.
There's a fine line.
And I'm not sure where that line is yet.


hhhmmm...

I love Copeland

Welcome love, I have made a place for you here

I know every word they say.

I know how they want to make you change.


Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me

I can love you as you are

I didn't mean to make you want to leave


It's a fight between my heart and mind,

No one really wins this time

No one really wins this time


If you don't find the love you want,

if I have acted ungracefully

I don't want to see you go

I never meant to make you want to leave


But go if you want.

Make your way straight to the door.

I hope that you look back before you go

'cause grace looks back before it starts to leave


It's a fight between my heart and mind,

No one really wins this time

No one really wins this time

In the endless fight of grace and pride

I don't want to win this time

I don't want to win this time


Change if you want, but don't you go and change for me

I will love you as you are

I didn't mean to make you want to leave


It's a fight between my heart and mind

No one really wins this time

No one really wins this time

In the endless fight of grace and pride

I don't want to win this time

I don't want to win this time

I want one now.

HaHa...I spent last night with a giant bowl of Vanilla Ice-Cream, a piece of Classic-Coffee-Cake, a Double Chocolate Fudge Cupcake, AND a venti caramel macchiato. While watching four episodes of "Popular: Second Season".
Also, yesterday afternoon, I bought the movie Pride And Prejudice. And I bought two CDs; Augustana - All The Stars And Boulevards, and Aqualung - Strange And Beautiful. Great music.
I'm not feeling too well. I'm going to the doctor either this week, or next. Scary...

I've hit it. Rock Bottom that is.

Okay. So, why is called "Rock Bottom"? Why can't it be "Pillowy Bottom"? I mean, shouldn't the utter hysteria, and fear of death while you're falling be enough punishment? Why put rocks on the bottom? And if not pillows, then I vote for marshmellows. mmm...or cotton-candy. That wouldn't be so bad either. Though I admit, it could get kind of sticky. Then again, so could the marshmellows if it were a warm day, and they were to start melting...gross. I'll just stick with the pillows I guess. They should replace the Rocks with Pillows. 
JEEZ...I'm going crazy...seriously. The voices in my head tell me that I should be locked away in an insane alsylum.
There should be a medication for this.

I forget what TV show I was watching yesterday. But I'll quote something from it. I found it to be quite humorous. It said, "Don't you know? The Earth is the mental institution of the Universe." I've found that to be kind of true. Almost everyone has these little quirks, that if you were to really think about it, could quite possibly classify them as "crazy".

I'm rambling...what's my problem!? lol. I had a fun week-end. It was great. No, really, it was. ~_^

Just sitting here, thinking. and thought. that maybe. I need zoloft. although a friend of mine who used it (abused it, is closer to the truth) said he saw vines growing in his bedroom (that resembled jack's beanstalk), and it started twirling around him. suffocating.
Sounds interesting.
But he took too much dosage. Purposefully, for one reason.
I would never do that, though

I want to go to Boston.

(i like Augustana)
I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...
Boston... where no one knows my name...