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Tuesday, 19 September 2006
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Betrayal...
Funny word.
It's strange. I've unintentionally hurt some people recently, and now that they're purposefully trying to hurt me back, I feel guilty for feeling betrayed...because in their eyes, I betrayed them first.
BUT I DIDN'T.
And now, I'm kind of trapped in this web of lies and deceit, and I want nothing more than for everything to work out. I want nothing more than for them to forgive me for doing whatever it was that I did.
If I could go back, I know I would have done things differently. Handled myself differently. Not been so naive, ignorant, selfish, STUPID!
I'd tell them I'm sorry! But I already have. Multiple times.
This...is...ridiculous.
Friday, 15 September 2006
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Currently Listening
Don't You Fake It
By The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
see relatedSearching For The Silver Lining...There's Gotta Be One, Right?
I'm a little lazy. So I'm copying and pasting this entry from my MySpace blog.
Another week. Went by so fast I could hardly keep track of the days.
It's Friday. The skies are completely clear...not a cloud in the sky.
Kind of ironic if you ask me. Seems like there should be at least one
rain cloud up there. At least one.
I like rainy days...though they always do tend to make me sleepy.I was up so late last night, doing laundry.
My parents left yesterday. They'll be gone for a week. Until NEXT Friday.
Can't say I was remotely sad to say, "Goodbye, Have fun."Audrey. One more day. Til I see you.
Turnstile
By: MeYou made your own decisions
Don't tell me I didn't warn you enough
'Cause I made it clear to you, best I knew how
And there's no turning back, there's no turning back nowI walked with blind perception
Knowing it was just a matter of time
'Cause you can't fly forever, you're bound to come down
And there's no turning back, there's no turning back nowTry, try, try as you may
But don't tell me I didn't try hard enough
'Cause I gave up everything, blind to the past
Now there's no turning back, there's no turning backYesterday's gone
Try to move on from the lies that had bound us together
And I'll remember you
I'll always remember youTry, try, try as you may
But don't tell me I didn't try hard enough
'Cause I gave up everything, blind to the past
Now there's no turning back, there's no turning back now
Wednesday, 23 August 2006
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Currently Listening
The Covers Record
By Cat Power
7. I Found A Reason
see relatedMoonpools...
I wish...
I wish......."Wishes do no good.
Stop wishing. Stop making yourself thevictim! It was your fault all along!!!
You need to see the truth...and the truth is that you're all alone.
Honestly, they could care less.
Be stronger because of it. You need them as much as they need you. Which is absolutely none.
Come out on the other side and watch them as they marvel at how you picked yourself up and continued on your journey.
You'll be the strong one while they are trying to find their breath, gasping for air."I want Ice Cream.
Watched Hostel. How horrid.Talked to my father about how I've been wanting to move away from here.
He didn't seem to mind that much, and we talked about the different places I'd like to live.
Don't know if it'll happen...any time soon. But it's a start.Silent Hill...on DVD now.
Cat power is amazing. Definitely HAVE to check her out.
No one is reading this. So I don't know why I'm typing.
I'm bored.
But content.
Don't screw it up.
Patience
By: Maria MenaDamn you for trusting me
what's wrong with you?
I'll work for nothing less.
Damn you for accepting my immaturity
when I scream for silence
child, I'll work for nothing less.
I need patience, and someone strong enough
to hold my breath for me until the smoke clears.
I need patience, and time to think before I speak,
for when I'm short of breath, I tend to lie.
Damn you for letting me sleep till noon
and get away with it.
I'll work for nothing less.
Damn you for keeping quiet
when I like to
I won't work for anything less.
I need patience, and someone strong enough
to hold my breath for me until the smoke clears.
I need patience, and time to think before I speak,
for when I'm short of breath, I tend to lie.
Tuesday, 13 June 2006
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Currently Listening
Taking The Long Way
By Dixie Chicks
Lullaby
see relatedMaybe...
no.
yes.
no.
yes.
no.
maybe.
I'm sure there's a nice quiet place somewhere in this world where I can go and get away from all of this...shiznukkle
FROU FROU
Sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud
Sometimes I'll have you know it's all insane
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth
Sometimes I like to get away from this saddening crowd
Sometimes I feel my life is all in vain (nn, Diy da, nn da)
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to jack it in
Maybe it's time for me to halt...
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth
Some days my strength walks out
Some days I can't go on
It is for real
We can walk about
We can work it over, and over, and over, and over, and over, and...
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
I've got a good mind to throw it all away
After all, what is it worth
Sunday, 21 May 2006
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beginnings of a new song
The sign’s up front the bags are packed
You get on the cab and don’t look back
All you left was a note to say goodbye
You’ll follow your heart and go where it leads you
Sometimes it takes a little time to
Find the right time to say goodbye
But you know this isn’t home anymore
ready2flywww
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- Name: Heath
- Country: United States
- State: Florida
- Metro: Panama City
- Birthday: 8/12/1986
- Gender: Male
- Member Since: 9/10/2004
